the best years of our lives

we spend the best years of our lives in school, isn't that weird?
We have no idea how much worth these years are but we still feel like they are the worst. We should make experiences, fall in love, have fun! But instead society expects us to work hard for school and have basically no social life.

We shouldn't spend our teenage years thinking about the future.

We should live! However we want to! Just do it (hah saw the nike ref there?)

Who am i living for?

But at the end of it all, who am i living for? 

- Katy Perry "Who am I living for?"

drunk

about 30 minutes ago, i thought to myself that i wanted to get drunk. why? well, today wasn't especially a really bad day but I just felt really bad. I had some beer left from some party. I got it out, locked my door and got ready to get drunk. I drank 2 bottles of beer when I started to feel even worse. I thought alcohl would make me feel better but turned out, it didn't. I was drunk about 2 times before and when I was, i was genuienly happy. Maybe not that much afterwards but in that moment i felt great. maybe that's just what I needed in that moment. I don't know. But maybe, writing about how I feel will make me feel better.

And well, drinking alone isn't that much fun anyway soo

me

why is everyone so obsessed with looks? why does is even matter how you look when your character is really what defines you?!

People around me have been really about looks lately but i won't let that get to me. I judge people by how they act and now by their weight.

Obviously if i am not happy in my own skin i can change a few things like hair colour, weight but if i don't than i won't! Why should I chane for anyone????

future

How am I supposed to know what I want to do in my future when I don't even know who I am.

Girly? A punk? self-confident? shy?

I have no clue.